Friendship often ends in love... Love in friendship never ends...
You know someone long enough and are comfortable with his doesn't mean you love him...
Tuesday, May 9, 2006
Sunday, May 7, 2006
A mistake
i feel guilty for whatever happened till now... looks different today... I am a cheapo, man!!
How can I think of him this way? He is my best friend... and i feel i have betrayed a trust by having such feelings for him!
i didn't say that I love him... i still do... rather much more than the past... But, I needn't pair us... i love him as a friend and the story must end there...
As i look back at this blog and i realize that i love him as a person and not as an affair-material!
We both are attached to a great extent... but we have different expectations from our life partners... and why shouldn't we?
My funda in life has always been - for loving a person, all i need is understanding... now experience contradicts me... I can love any person, but I cannot see everyone in the place of my life partner... There are many aspects to a commitment...
People say, love is blind... Rascals!! It's infatuation that is blind! If you get your eyes fixed after infatuation, you will find love...
I will be miserable without him... He is someone I enjoy being with... I am fond of his company... I enjoying doing stuff with him... I admire him... I'm addicted to him... I can't live without him... We are emotionally very proximate... But, this isn't love... This is bonding... This is the depth of a friendship...
Now that i am clear with the going ons between us, i consider this blog as a fresh and new one...
How can I think of him this way? He is my best friend... and i feel i have betrayed a trust by having such feelings for him!
i didn't say that I love him... i still do... rather much more than the past... But, I needn't pair us... i love him as a friend and the story must end there...
As i look back at this blog and i realize that i love him as a person and not as an affair-material!
We both are attached to a great extent... but we have different expectations from our life partners... and why shouldn't we?
My funda in life has always been - for loving a person, all i need is understanding... now experience contradicts me... I can love any person, but I cannot see everyone in the place of my life partner... There are many aspects to a commitment...
People say, love is blind... Rascals!! It's infatuation that is blind! If you get your eyes fixed after infatuation, you will find love...
I will be miserable without him... He is someone I enjoy being with... I am fond of his company... I enjoying doing stuff with him... I admire him... I'm addicted to him... I can't live without him... We are emotionally very proximate... But, this isn't love... This is bonding... This is the depth of a friendship...
Now that i am clear with the going ons between us, i consider this blog as a fresh and new one...
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
A year has past
Funny eh? Writing exactly after a year...
Not that my feelings have evaporated or degraded... i feel the absolute same way about him... He's still my largest crush... It's almost two and a half year now... Feeling the same amount of attraction to a boy for such a long span should be something... Deep love sounds too dramatic...
He has has one more girl in his life after I last wrote... and, even i ain't single... which is the reason for me writing today...
I think I'm somehow betraying my guy... cuz, though i am technically with my guy, I still have softs for this idiot! I dream about a future with him... i know it's practically impossible to go out with him now... but i keep thinking of him...
I have been having more in depth conversations with him... It's beautiful... to look at him... to be with him... to talk to him... the more I am with him, more is the desire to own him... Sounds crazy, yea!
I don't trust myself... I have had so many varied crushes... so many perspectives... i should have got over him by now!
Not that my feelings have evaporated or degraded... i feel the absolute same way about him... He's still my largest crush... It's almost two and a half year now... Feeling the same amount of attraction to a boy for such a long span should be something... Deep love sounds too dramatic...
He has has one more girl in his life after I last wrote... and, even i ain't single... which is the reason for me writing today...
I think I'm somehow betraying my guy... cuz, though i am technically with my guy, I still have softs for this idiot! I dream about a future with him... i know it's practically impossible to go out with him now... but i keep thinking of him...
I have been having more in depth conversations with him... It's beautiful... to look at him... to be with him... to talk to him... the more I am with him, more is the desire to own him... Sounds crazy, yea!
I don't trust myself... I have had so many varied crushes... so many perspectives... i should have got over him by now!
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