A year has past

Funny eh? Writing exactly after a year...

Not that my feelings have evaporated or degraded... i feel the absolute same way about him... He's still my largest crush... It's almost two and a half year now... Feeling the same amount of attraction to a boy for such a long span should be something... Deep love sounds too dramatic...

He has has one more girl in his life after I last wrote... and, even i ain't single... which is the reason for me writing today...

I think I'm somehow betraying my guy... cuz, though i am technically with my guy, I still have softs for this idiot! I dream about a future with him... i know it's practically impossible to go out with him now... but i keep thinking of him...

I have been having more in depth conversations with him... It's beautiful... to look at him... to be with him... to talk to him... the more I am with him, more is the desire to own him... Sounds crazy, yea!

I don't trust myself... I have had so many varied crushes... so many perspectives... i should have got over him by now!