Something romantic...

He is beautiful... so very beautiful... just like the winter's shining landscape... as delicate as petals of daisy... as free as the eagle soaring against the blue... his eyes... mysterious... like the calm sea... everything about him... so very precious... precious than all the gems in this world... his soul... essence of sky and earth... his feelings... a volcano... yet to explode... his smile... smile of lost innocence... pain vibrates deep inside his gentle heart... a lock shuts in disturbed thoughts of his mind... a mind with as many roads as this world has... i look at him and i see pure truth... like looking at a clear night sky... millions of stars twinkle within him... he is the ultimate beauty... beauty as i define it... he's perfect... his imperfections make him so... he's my best friend and i love him... and i love him although, not because... and i would give up all the things i think are beautiful to hold his beauty in my heart... for he is everything in this world for me... and i have found a world in him...

My first deep thought...

I am very excited... Not able to get my mind off him... I think about him in the day and dream about him in the night... Can't help it... I try to control in vain... Definitely, ain't desperate about him...

Sometimes, I think, I shouldn't like him... Not because he loves someone else, but because i don't think he likes me... It's not gonna stop me from loving him, but it can sure hurt less... It hurts a lot loving him and not getting it back!

I am not perfectly sure I love him... Maybe, it's just infatuation... he's not too good looking... But, hell with that... Sticks around gals too much... irritates the hell outa me... talks too much... and i like listening to him... very caring for his x-girl... disappoints me at times... senseless he is... duznt hav feelinz for me at least... i get hurt a lota tyms... quite sure he duznt feel bad about it... i doubt wether he even notices...

i dun wan him to know about my feelings for him... it'll spoil whatever relation we have... i know he duznt like me... i dun even look pretty... so the thot of such a relation shud b long forgotten...